I think many of us have a tendency to secretly live in our hurt. Outside we seem perky beings just living our "awesome" lives, when inside we're truly torn apart. We don't realize it, but the more we try to push it away, the deeper the wound gets, the heavier our days seem.We keep living our lives above the pain, because it's "easier", it's "better".. It's as if we're afraid to admit we're hurt. Why? The cycle I see, in my life, and many people: we're hurt, we shut down and we step away. We step away from people, from feelings, and sadly and sometimes even unintentionally, from God.
A bible verse that has kept ringing at the back of my mind is Psalms 147:3 :
"God heals the brokenhearted, and bandages their wounds"
God promises us healing...How come is it that He many times is the last one we run to when we're hurt? Why is it that we're afraid to let God in on what we're feeling?
I struggle to answer this question even now, when I'm supposed to be giving a conclusion to all this...
In Art class the other day, we were to copy a picture and give color to it.. I chose a scenery of a mountainous area by a lake, with the rays of the sunset dispersing through the valley of the mountain...As you can imagine, I had to use several colors. I asked my teacher what color I should use for the area by the Sun. She said gray. Gray..? I thought it odd gray would make the picture look better, but went ahead anyway.. As I applied it by the sun rays, I began to see the contrasts, and I saw how the picture was coming together...
Just as I finished, I couldn't help but think of how the gray, though plain and tedious as it is, made the rays burst in color even more so than before... I think God works the same way. Sometimes it seems like many areas of our lives are painted in gray, we can't see the end result of our painting, we're confused by it and continue to remain in the hurt... But God uses the gray in our lives so we focus on the rays of Sun: His healing, His strength, His love. God uses gray in our lives so our final picture turns out truly and completely beautiful. We just have to keep moving, not letting our hurts stop us from truly living; and trusting that He knows what He's doing with his paintbrush, He sees how it'll turn out in the end.
"You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light."- Psalms 18:28
2 comments:
Wow! Thanks for shring these thoughts!
Thank you, Sarah! I needed that encouragement.
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